This time, has been a completely different story. And now, as we near the end, it just blows me away that we've made it this far!! I mean, the road hasn't been exactly smooth, but still, here we are, one day shy of being 38 weeks pregnant and I couldn't be happier. Sebastian is excited for his little brother and people around us are excited for us. It's neat that this journey took a somewhat normal course this time around.
However, having said that, I must confess, that I'm a little scared for Friday. I don't really like the whole part where I have to have surgery, major abdominal surgery at that. I didn't have the option as trying to go the natural way was putting me at too high of a risk. Yet, the c-section is not all roses and butterflies either. I'm not a huge fan of needles, yet I'll be having some on Thursday, and then Friday I get the IV one as well as the one in the spine (especially not excited for that one). Then, they will cut into me to get the child out. And if it's like last time, I will be stapled up afterwards. Then, there is the part where I can't lift anything afterwards. Try explaining that to my two year old!! And the part where you can't drive for two weeks, and you shouldn't be doing much of anything for 4-6 weeks. It's tough to rely on others, but I won't have much of a choice.
But there is a light at the end of the tunnel. In 4-6 weeks I can start running again. I have really missed this!! I love running. It's time when I can pop in my headphones and let the ipod take me away. I can think about things and clear my head, and improve my health, all at the same time.
And of course, I haven't forgotten about the incredible little buddy that will be joining our family. So, although the surgery is maybe not my picture perfect idea of how a Friday should go, this time, I will get to see my baby right away, rather than simply in passing as he's whisked off to the NICU. My husband will be by my side and we'll get to welcome our new son into the world together. That will be so different and so wonderful!! So, as the countdown continues, I will remain both excited and a little nervous, but hey, it's mostly excited!!