Thursday, April 16, 2009

Self Sabotage

So, I am not entirely sure why, but I think I often sabotage my very own efforts. I know what I want. I know what I need to do to get there, yet I will do things along the way that are completely contradictory to what I am after. Do you know what I mean? Sort of like working out. I know I need to do it, I love it when I do, yet I also will come up with a million excuses and then I don't do it. Or eating. I know I don't need to snack on the things I do sometimes. Yet, I'm not sure if it's out of boredom or what, but I'll make the worst choices: ice cream, chips, chocolate. I'm sure I'm not the only one that does this sort of thing. And really, all it does is slow down the end result. But I'm wondering why I do it. Am I afraid of what will happen if I reach my goals? If I actually shrink a couple of clothing sizes? If I actually run a 10km in under an hour? Is it because I don't believe in myself? Do I truly think I can't get there, and therefore sabotage the effort just to prove that point true?

I will try and pay closer attention to my actions in the next week. My workouts and eating have both been terrible, and I want to change that. So, perhaps, by taking notice of the ways I try to derail my own efforts, I might be more successful this week. We'll see...

1 comment:

Cindy said...

we just chatted about this but yes, I totally understand and yet don't know why we do it.